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It was a while sins I wrote here I had a plan when I started this blog to fill it with news on my music and so one. But my life (or more correct my essence or soul or what we want to call it) is a bit out of focus right now. I feel like the man that roll his rock up the mountain in the land of the dead. Hades was the poor bastards name if I remember right.

Okay, maybe a bit drastic. I am alive he’s not.

But at the moment it all feels just as pointless.

It seams that I can’t fined the joy in what I do, I just doing what I know I like but I don’t feel anything. Feels like I am hollow inside it’s noting there to find the joy and the inspiration is almost gone. I really have to work hard to find it.

But the odd thing about it all is that when I can find it, I really think I accomplish great things and somehow somewhere in side of my head I know that I am on the right track.

So if only this cloak of emptiness could loosen it’s grip. I could be on my way.

But at the moment I just fall back down to that uninspiring stat of mind and just have to drag me up again and again. I don’t really know how long I have the strength to lift me up.

But on the other hand I don’t know what else I can do.

I really hate to not have my creativity intact feels like some important part of me is missing and I don’t know how to get it back at least not for long. So, now I feel sad because I have problem finding the joy in what I know that I normally love.

Why this sad blog contribution?

Well I felt that I had to explain why it seams to be noting happening here at Pingemusic at the moment. It actually really are but the things thats happens are taking form in my computer and in my studio but because of my sad and confused stat of mind every thing takes a bit longer to accomplish than I first expected. but for thous that are waiting (if anyone are?) I just want to say that it really are close now the new album “IamI” is almost finished and when it is you are going to be able to download a new song every month for more than a year.

I hope your life smiles at you and you have a wonderful time although mine is not that great at the moment. Somewhere in the back of my head I know that it’s just a matter of time until it all turns around but it would be nice if the time was now and not tomorrow.

Regards and have a skilful life.

Pinge